In keeping with last week’s theme…

More change…

Sunday February 19,2012

Many of you know through my facebook posts that my eldest has been traveling and auditioning and waiting to hear about colleges. Well this Thursday, he go a letter from Oklahoma City University that he was accepted into the Musical Theater Program…with a partial scholarship to boot. Now of course I am as proud as I have ever been, not because he got in, but because of the transformation I saw him go through. He was not prepared for his first audition at all. He learned from his mistake….and worked really hard from that point on.

When the letter came, I found myself in a funny place. I just kinda shut down. I have known and looked forward to Kegan growing up and moving on with his life. There was something about getting that letter, a feeling of…this is really happening.

All the typical things ran through my brain…all of the questions about…have I done everything I could, what have I forgotten to teach him, blah blah blah. Now, I know what everyone is expecting me to say: how much I love him, how I would do anything for my kids..yadda, yadda, yadda. Of course these are true, but I really like this kid. What I see in this boy is all that is good in me. I found myself wondering who the hell I am once he is not in my day to day life.

I realize that our relationship is NEVER over…it is simply in transition….like all of life. I really like just being around him everyday….even if he is a Steelers fan.

Change though is change….

So here I am….read to let him go, let him fly, let him shine, let him fall and learn to pick himself back up. Am I ready to do the same for myself? I suppose I have to…to show him and my little girl that all of these things are possible.

Ah, change.

Mona




How exciting!!! How lucky a boy, with you as an example of fortitude and striving!!!

Comment by Tait Fletcher — February 19, 2012 @ 11:21 pm

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