~a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.

Saturday Oct 29, 2011

Dear Fear,

Lately, old friend, you seem to have taken over many of my decisions.  I had thought for a while that I had stopped using you as my sole guidepost.  Well, I have noticed lately that you have roared back…taking over my thoughts and choices.

What I have learned from our old encounters Fear is that you didn’t really take over anything…I am the one who handed it over to you. I choose to take it back from you.

I will not summarily dismiss you Fear…I know there are times when I do need to listen to your warnings…but not now.  Your insistence that I should stay away from the gym have not served me.  While I do need to listen to your concerns about my back, the lies you are feeding me about the guilt I should be feeling about spending time at Undisputed are hurting me.

Thankfully, something more powerful stepped in the other day to help me see you clearly…it was Grief.  Guess where she showed up? Yes, right there~during the workout~on the floor at Undisputed. Instead of walking away from Grief I embraced her…and guess what….no one at the gym judges me for that embrace.  In fact, I was in turn, embraced fully by Tait.

So your warnings about the judgement…they were imaginary.

Thank you for your concerns, especially for my injury and I will listen when I really need to hear. For now, there are other choices to make. So please, I am asking you, no telling you to step away from me for a while….I promise, I won’t judge you.


Mobility WOD